I know that being mad at one of my bestest friends for my ex liking her is dumb, but I feel like she’ll end up being with him. Thou’ she says she’s not in like with him, you never know later. So far, she hasn’t spoken about her crush ever since I told her he liked her. When I see her, I just feel like breaking down. I get so insulted. I loved him and now I decided to let him go, but I still feel insulted. She is something, but I wonder if she’s hiding feelings. And when I think about it, I just can’t handle it. MY. BEST. FREND. Yeah, I know he’s the past and there’s no future, but I feel hurt. I’m not gnna waste anymore tears nor bleeding for some guy who doesn’t want me. I try to get him back, but all I’m doing is hurting myself. Physically and mentally. I wnna shut my mind away from you. And I wnna shut my heart from keeping your name. It’s painful to do this, but I think I have to since you’ve done the same. Maybe if my best frend does end up liking him, in awhile, maybe I will give her permission. But I swear, if she doesn’t get my permission first, I’ll never be able to speak to her again, well maybe I will, but I won’t think of her the same. It just hurts. That’s all. Pain.